Jennifer Raygoza

My name is Gianna Weston. I am Vampire. I was thrust into a world I didn't know. Given a life I didn't think I wanted. I have had my world turned upside down and my life shredded before me. All this time holding onto the love of a man who breathes life into me and I into him. His very existence sets fire to my cold skin. He is my maker, my husband and the father to my children. But even love can no longer fight the demons inside of me. Not after all the tragedies. The death, the pain, and the heartache are haunting me with a relentless vengeance. This darkness has me by its nails scraping sinfully at my core. It's time to stop running and hiding from the darkness. These demons I speak of won't let me rest until I accept what I am. A nightmare. A killer. A blood thirsty animal. Are you afraid? You should be. I. AM. A. MONSTER.

The media spread my face nationwide on every newspaper known to man when the story first broke. It read- James King. Son of wealthy, ambitious hotel owner, Victoria King, busted for cocaine possession. Let's be honest. I've always been a rebel, a little rough around the edges. The black sheep of the family. The outcast. No one ever thought twice about me, not even when I was arrested. The only thing is I didn't really do it, but I served time for the crime. Today my freedom was granted to me. I was permitted to leave this prison that I had lived in for the last sixteen months. The guards opened my cell, grinned and told me I could finally go back home. Home? See, it wouldn't be my home. It would be her home. I have no home of my own anymore. Funny thing about being locked up, is that you lose everything, including yourself. You no longer exist to the outside world. You're transparent, at least that's how I felt until I met Emily. She was kind and in my world people like her were far and few between. I was drawn to her like a magnet. I wanted her, but I'd kill myself trying to get her because she's damaged. I just didn't know it yet.

It's been three years since I have turned, and I am not sure who I am anymore. I don't even know if I want to be what I have become. Is love enough to keep me alive inside even if I am dead? How can I find peace within myself when everything around me screams war and death? How will things end when one man holds my eternal love and another wants me dead? There is no end as far as I can see. It's just the beginning because I can feel the darkness approaching. It wants me. It calls for me by name. I will keep on fighting until it arrives. The problem is, if I don't learn to shut off my emotions I may just become my own worst enemy. Is it all too much, or not enough? These are the things a vampire queen, new mother and woman fighting with her past human morals must ask herself. I have one more important question to answer that could change everything.